Tuesday, May 6, 2014

MY BREASTFEEDING JOURNEY IS.... OVER?

I have been wondering whether to write this post for a while. Its been hard to put into words and mainly because for me its an emotional subject. I am talking about breastfeeding and it has been more than 1 year my experience of it. I want to breastfeeding my baby because of the health benefits and I really looked forward to the bond it would create. It had never been a question for me whether I would breastfeed my child once I had one. Not only because the moment Naaya's was placed on my chest, she instinctively fed and I gazed down at her with so much love. It was a scene I had envisioned in my head if i had a baby and it was playing out just as I had imagined. Even if i have to feeding her a few hours after she was born, at least there is no issues and i felt so blessed because things were exactly as they should be.

I learn as much as i can about breastfeeding before Naaya was born. I am reading lots of breastfeeding article on the Internet because i thought the more i know about how to get started and the benefits of nursing, the more likely i am to succeed at it.

To be honest, I'm a bit discomfort when Naaya's first latches on, especially in the first hours before my milk has come in. Naaya has an amazingly strong suck for such a tiny person. It’s a lot like a snapping turtle! it only took a hour to get her latched on correctly and my milk finally came in.
The next few days in the hospital, breastfeeding Naaya is such an easy-peasy. There's nothing to be worry about, but after 3 days breastfeeding her, i started to feel that my boobs becoming really painful and breastfeeding her start to get more difficult. Then i realize that the problem was that I had so much milk. My boobs getting so big and i feel so uncomfortable, even it is so painful when i accidentaly touched it.

During the first week of nursing, i had a nipple soreness. I read about this a lot, this one is the most common reasons new mothers give for discontinuing breastfeeding. I try to convince myself that is just a short-term problem, and can usually be corrected in a matter of days. But experiencing bleeding and cracked nipples really drives me crazy. It's really hurt.
My mother in law, my mother, my husband, and everyone around me is really supportive. They helped me a lot through this hard phase and i felt so blessed.

I was lucky enough to stay at home with Naaya so she was breastfed exclusively until now. I have been 14 months breastfeeding her, but i was really confused by her right now. Since she got HMFD a few days ago, she refused to drink her breastmilk... I know, when babies were sick they will lost their appetite on almost everything, but it's been 14 days and she still refuses her breastmilk. Did anyone ever experience this? I really want to breastfeed her until she was 2 years old and i can't stop now. I'll soon talk to my pediatrician about this, hoping that he can give me some advice to fix this problem. Naaya keep on drinking her UHT Milk Full Cream and she can drink 5 box of 125ml UHT each day. That's such a lot of milk for her! I don't know what's wrong with her or what's wrong with my milk, but my breast is getting bigger and painful each and every day... And i really really missed breastfeeding her. What should i do?

(In writing about breastfeeding, I am always conscious of not wishing to offend those people to whom breastfeeding was not an option for them. I know personally how hard it can be for some people and without the right support, it is a heartbreaking situation. Whilst I am passionate about breastfeeding I hate the thought of ostracising anyone or making anyone feel they made the wrong decision. I always support every mothers in all situations, whether they breast-fed or not.)

Found this amazing picture by Ari Nordhagen of Amen Photography. I love the nutritional facts stamped right there on the source. Breastfeeding is near and dear to my heart.

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